Wednesday, 24 July 2013

Pass it on

This website is really helping me.
https://moodgym.anu.edu.au/moodgym
If you know someone with depression pass it on.

Monday, 22 July 2013

A Day to decide

My brother has an appointment at Guys hospital on 6th August to see a professor. I have been advised to join him for this appointment.

This is when we will be advised based on our case, which is our best option. Direct transplant (from me to him) OR the paired scheme (I donate to a stranger & he receives from a stranger).

When all is said and done, the final decision will rest with my brother and I. However, I am more than happy to do whatever he wants to do. Not because I'm indecisive or a procrastinator, but because I want this process to be as simple for my brother as is possible.

The direct transplant route, involves plasma exchange treatment for my brother, which doesn't sound very nice. The paired scheme would avoid that, as he would get an exact match.

My brother has been through enough with this illness and I don't want him to go through anything else that isn't absolutely necessary. So, as much as not knowing where my kidney has gone, is a little unsettling, if the paired scheme is going to be the easiest and the best option for him - then paired it is.

On a positive note, it might be kinda nice to think there is a part of me wandering around somewhere, that has enabled that person to live a more normal life. I think that's how I have to think about.

Besides, if I am struggling with it, there is a great counsellor I can see. Plus I'm sure they will prepare me as much as possible for both the physical and emotional side effects of the transplant surgery.

I'm ready!! For the first time in..... I think ever, actually. I am ready to do this. I don't have any more doubts, I have questions but no doubts. I feel good about what I'm "potentially" doing. I've made peace with it and I'm ready, I'm ready to help my brother claim his life back!!